Tuesday, March 30, 2004

...listening to forever by as i lay dying...

One madness band..just love the angst-ridden-hardcore type of music.heh..watever u call it..was wondering and thinkin' of the day underedge performed last sat. k i admit it was the best set for me.yar..prolly because i was much more confident.. to think i even sang to myself the lyrics for 'end of the road'..happy as a bird..phew.. feel like swinging my guitar around, doing the punk-rock aerobics jump,do all sorts of stuff ar..but..damn..if only..haishh...hahaa...k..sheessh..but i did sort of like swing myself around..and..it hit the mike..hah..violent..always like tat sia. I really enjoyed myself that day.. i believe u too man.... ;p Maybe she was the reason why i was confident..it SO happened..unexpected...ahah..heart her to the bones.. And seeing the other bands perform was as usual...INSPIRING!~ i was kinda stoked seeing yan's band(outsiderz) perform..how i love twin guitar solos..amazin'. ALL the bands had their uniqueness.. Watever it is, we can't be perfect..but we must strive hard to be the BEST. And to all those who came down for the gig...million shanks... u peeps are the reason for us puttin' up the best we can give..so once again, CHEERS!


Sunday, March 28, 2004

first up..im puzzled with the italics-words-thingy here.its like waddahell?!nieways..ok..im too tired too think.ok go!~ once again..thx u guys. awesome!~


Friday, March 26, 2004

woweee after so long...kinda delighted..u turn the fire on...

Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
Still holdin' on, you're still the one
First time our eyes met - same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger - wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on...
So if you're feelin' lonely don't - you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good - so if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Please believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch - still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
Still holdin' on - still number one
I remember the smell of your skin - I remember everything
I remember all your moves - I remember you yeah
I remember the nights - ya know I still do
So if you're feelin' lonely don't - you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good - so if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Oh believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you

One thing I'm sure of - is the way we make love
And one thing I depend on - is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Babe believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - if I can't stop lovin' you
Never leave me - I don't know what I'd do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Can't stop lovin' you...

heh..grew up listenin to the song.guess wat?now then im 'feeling' the song.



Wednesday, March 24, 2004

rufio,follow me

inside my heart,
i'm making spend time on,
on first thinking that you've stolen my heart,
entrapped my mind..
im giving in to you.
im lost again.
i see there is no difference.. we're still alone ....

sleepless nights...thinkin' of the days we used to be happy..prayed hard,starin' into space..the future was bleak.i felt that it was goin nowhere.but she was my life.i was forcin love..its all ending..i've got to stop pretendin..those were the days to the 'break'..

something strange in me,
i feel the same for you.
but, there is no difference,
we're still alone .
there is no need in crying,
there is no need in dying .
it makes no difference.
we're still alone....

yea..its all fated..funny in a way tat we still feel for each other..and the rest is history..huh?

so come home with me tonight.we'll wait till dark turns light.cant fight this feeling in my self.im lost in thoughts...
no way you're gone,
silence evolves..
no way you're gone,
follow me home..
no way you're gone
silence evolves
no way if you're gone...

one point of time..cant let go..she was my diamond,my precious..i braced up,tapping her back,"take care,buddy".holdin' up my tears..i was already thinkin how life wud be without her?wat am i gonna be?the other voice said..hey!~ tis is fate..u can't force love,zak...but still,i feel like taking back my words.dilemna...abruptly,i remembered abg nizam sayin' that if u really love that person and its time 2 let go,we better let go.i believe in him and respect her decision."mungkin ader hikmah di sebelakangnya".and she did not come back home...regrets are regrets.but living life to the fullest is a must..and i then realised i was growing up.heh


Sunday, March 21, 2004

we were young, they say?it sets me thinking of the past.its all too fast.takin things for granted...yea.. sure, i was the happiest boy on earth,back then.my mistake?her mistake?nah.no one's perfect.we have flaws too.but seriously,being out of 'it',i learned a lot.we can't hate each other.just because u leave me,i hate u?wats tt?no no no.sometimes lookin deep inside ur heart, u will c ur plain mistake.maybe,too urself,u wud say"wat did i do wrong?y do i suffer such fate??" wow....and tt sometimes result in the fall of man, leading to various fatal accidents.k tis is crap.go figure.RETRIBUTION.yes, it did happen to me.everything in tis werld is fair after all.sometimes though,feelings are feelings.my mistake tat i'll never forget...tat is to think tat everythin' is on my way.put aside all stuffs, even family..yes.. i was very terrible..to think tat i already had a wife..yes!~i was crazy.i was stoopeedd.and i didnt knew how to appreciate things like sayin thank u and stuffs like tat.yes i was a kiddie boy..hah.cant b blame though.first relationship experience.4 now,my philosophy is myself.meaning makin the best out of me.depend on fate for everythin.we plan,HE decide.all the best..i cherish everything.ONE LOVE YALL.


Monday, March 15, 2004

And the debate for today is..."Are promises meant to be break?".hah.lol.ok i'm lame. As u all may have read my previous entry, i promised tat i'll write an entry yesterday.But i was too shagged.heheh.niwaes, its kinda great and inspiring watching all the ska bands performed yesteday.Wow was the word.LOOK out for u.s.v. in the near future.strong feeling tat they can become the next cesspit.phew.arrogant is sometimes an advantage and also a disadvantage to us,human beings(i'm talkin in general).but i believe tat for a band tat wants to go far...BOND is the word.and judging from yesterday's gig, professionalism(is there such a word?) also plays a part.the way u set ur sounds and ur vocals is also important.damn!~shahrul is a one cool guy.and wat i've notice about making a band is tat u hav to b influence by the music all around u.krekre.hurhur.
And i dunno y i can't wait for the 27 march gig for u.e. Usually, i would be nervous.but no..no more!~hah. maybe im quite ready.as for some of the boys who know me,i'm indecisive.ah madness~crazy!can u imagine wen at the day of the gig, u do abit of rehearsal and u tend to change some of the riffs u play??tats crazy!and tats me!~ so for now,i think i've finalise all.hopefully~~


Sunday, March 14, 2004

ay yo...~how's issit?hahee.yea2.k.a quick few words from me.updates more tmr.kinda sleepy.felt quite contented as i c tat we're not drifting apart despite the long 'disappearance' of us.i admit i can't c the sight of her.as in, it will only bring memories back, makin' me melancholy.

"bang,u get how many points?"

i sat down,dumbfounded.uh kie.at least there's an initiative of u startin a conversation.for tat,it somehow makes me feel delighted.stealin' glances at her reminds me of the cat and mouse game.heh.she looks sweet after all. ;p from a sombre night to a contented night.thanks.

"happy advanced birthday eh?hm.moga panjang umor dan murah rezeki mu".
"thanks~".
......
"takde birthday present ke"?

haha.hee.my predictions was right.hee.i dont take tat as she being tak malu.after all i know her.yes.quite well.the way she smile, the tone of the conversation.i knew tat she's jokin around.but yea,i'll get 4 her a prezzie.till now, i've not decided wat to buy 4 her.and at the same time,she's also testin' whether i still care(some sort ar) 4 her.after all,we're still friends, or shud i say, a sister to me.i believe we both felt contented and happy as we went our separate ways.heh


Wednesday, March 10, 2004

oh yea..reading is indeed fun.but sometimes, some words are hard for me to decipher.tats y the d7 in my english.here's something i wanna share..just came to my mind..furthermore,bro fie is bugging me to update.wats the use of having a blog?krekrekre..tats wat he said.true.but here i only write bout my views, my experiences,etc.aniting important tat i like to share wit u peeps.so here goes.. my music background.
Basically, i had no talents.remembered tat i sucked at playing the stupid recorder.durin those kiddy days..primary 1 right up to 3..and tt time.. i was surprised myself.i've already hear to songs like metallica,guns and roses and the offspring.all thanks to wal's brothers.fade to black, november rain, keep em separated.those were the songs tt keeps hummin' in my head.funny.and yes,honestly,i don hear to malay songs.factual.hah.years went by.pop music becoming a trend.so called ar.there was a period of time where most of us(upper primary kids) were listening to backstreet boys,code red,boyzone,savage garden,etc.i was a fanatic at tt time.not tt crazy till i buy every album of them lar.remembered havin boyzone's,bsb and savage garden.till now!~then there was a period of time wen i borrowed from abg nafi(wal's bro) his ride the lightning album,metallica.there were a few bands i listen to.. like megadeth and iron maiden.but still metallica's top of my list.then,i begin to have real interest on metallica.who's who on rhythm,lead,bass,drums..stuffs like tat.and i only know of songs to ride the lightning album.the rest comes at a later age.k so where was i?yea..p6.graduated.dumddeedum.~got to know of a skater guy(my father's friend son) who listens to rbf.curiosity kills the cat.i look up at a music store,music junction!yes!~can't remember though at where.and i got my first ska cd.the horns at tt time doesnt amazes me.its only the punk rock riffs tt i like.waha.and so,punk rock music comes to the picture..and i learned more bout metallica.was quite a great fan of metallica.abg nafi had all the album.bad religion,the offspring and green day cds soon fill my disc rack..lower secondary school years..skateboarding.wal,then,came to the picture.with influences of his mate(at tt time,he was a year older),he introduced to me some punk rock,ska and nu metal bands.RANCID,SOULFLY,ETC.i oso learned that he play electric guitar at a studio?got drums all??ahuha.its a jammin studio.at tt time it was at bedok,my old apartment there.baik ahpek!and soon the jamming fever arises...
ISKANDAR.yea.its iskandar mahmud.my sec 1 classmate.played drums for the military band.later learned he kinda share same interest,which is.. MUSIC.kehehehe..remembered him askin me wantin to go jam wit his cousins and fren.and YES! i agreed.basically i didnt noe to play any instrument.so there i was seeing them play.not bad.at least they can play unlike me!~slowly, there was a great enthusiasm on drums.and yar!~how could i forget.. blink 182! all thanks to wal.he's the one.the first ever song was dammit.and i really really really dig tt song.but too bad,i didnt get the chance to purchase the album.but wal has it!~
My first ever guitar.was a classical guitar tt my father found.hehe.at a void deck.he's aware of my interest.but of course,there's some damage to the guitar.develop a little interest on guitars.try to strum wen lookin at wal.at tat time,he cud play the guitar really well.i look up to him~went to the sch library in search of guitars.in an attempt to learn.but to no avail..so finally i learned power chords.hah.kinnda funny.i only know how to strum but didnt noe wat note i was strumming.the first ever song was last caress by misfits.it was covered by metallica.tat was self learnin.so i only noe of power chords..
SYAHMI.. "eh zak aku ingat sak tat time pat bus stop nak balik..beh aku dgr kao nyanyi lagu wherever i may roam."
soon,we got to know of each other.same interest cept tat he don't listen to punkrock.some of u may be wonderin..it's sammy ss9.lol.fast forward,fast forward.tada~first jammin session.me,sammy and zid.yea u awesome guys.damn u!~ahah.me on drums(learning the basic beats,on the process), sam on guitars and zid on bass.at tat time sam was already mad.his skill i mean.weee~~then,zid begin to lose interest.Farid(sam's childhood fren)then came to the picture.basically at tat time, we play metallica songs(easy ones),blink 182,green day and operation ivy,etc.i had to repeat it again.wal's responsible for this.credit goes to him.he introduce to me op ivy, catch 22,etc.most of the bands ar..then,zid prove us wrong.he improve on his bass.and then farid left the band due to unforeseen circumstances.
Skamageddon was born.me,zid,sam, and amin.usual covers but no metallica..we covered catch 22,living end,kemuri,no doubt,suicide machines,tipe-x.
plan too fool??ah yea.it was a combination of me,zyd and sam and wal and his mates.and yea!~we were excited.it was a dream come true for us(me zyd and sam) as now we're a full ska band wit horns.and it goes on and on and on...
under the edge. yes!danial and rafiee ahaha..my classmates(sec3 and 4).decided to form a side band as i still love punk rock!we decided to cover blink 182 songs.and i played guitar..and i sucked at it.so yar tt was it.wee.. i dun wanna become jack-of-all-trades.

"music is my wife.we're walking arm to arm. i wont follow..."


Tuesday, March 09, 2004

Do you know that I still think about you?
Even though I know that it's too late.
Do you know that I'm still missing you?
Especially right now you're far away.
There's no need to for you to tell me that; "I'm sorry",
There's no need for you to tell me that I'm sorry,
I said I'm sorry, I said I'm sorry...

I've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind
I've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking of you
I've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind
I've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking...

k tis song really relates to me.yar..yar its over.but still memories linger.deeply missin u.all the best.to tat special some1.good luck in ur future endeavours.


Monday, March 08, 2004

weee...~~shanks rafiee..after so long and yar.. here comes..my own blog..have told maself b4 not 2 hav a blog..but wadda heck..there's a need for me to write..i need to express myself...




eh y no entry.dammmit





hie all..ahah..my first try in doing tis blog..no profession.so..ermm..edit more next time..add stuffs prolly..k go..


Tuesday, March 02, 2004

hie...wassup yall... just a try out..confirm lame.lolx